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Tarothin Armunn
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PostPosted: Wed Mar 04, 2009 4:36 pm Post subject: Inside Tarothin's mind... Reply with quote

It has been a few days since Sanctus had allowed him to stay in his path for redemption.

Since then he hardly felt any anger. He knew if he took off the ankh though, that it would have been extreme. That he would shift and possibly wreck havoc among anything that was around. Happily he added... He shook his head, no... not happily. His eyes glazed over a bit... yes... happily... He shook his head again and put his hands on his head to grip his hair.

Even though he felt no anger, he did have an almost uncontrollable desire to kill. He... no the demon...

Was he wrong with his thinking? How was it that he came up that the demon was separate than he? It wasn't. It was long ago infused with him in a long battle with it to then become one. To destroy it would be to destroy himself. They were one.

No no... that can't be right. Can it? Hmm.... *his thought trailed off*

He was starting to train again in swordsmanship. The years of him cooped up in his room thinking had taken a toll. He was not as sharp. His movements seemed almost sluggish in comparison. Was he also so used to using his claws... it's claws... that he forgot the precision needed in swinging a sword? He had been defeated in single combat against a fellow swordsman for the first time in over 20 years. The last time had been Beleth... ironically another demon... He needed to train more...

Was his body weak for refusing to use the full of what he is? Or was it because of the...

He thoughtlessly placed a hand over the ankh turning his attention there.

The ankh... could it stop me from changing? He focused on his nails to see if they would grow and they did. No it can't. It just calms me down and fills me with a peace so as for me not to feel the need.... He let his hand return to normal again.

Galnor and Ditto had spoke to him the other night. Galnor said that the path I am on would fail. That I would once again fail in whatever it was that I did. And for once it doesn't bother me to be spoken to as such.

I chose this... I did. I did. I failed because of others, not because of myself. I failed because of others. My allies had failed me. My troops had failed me. The demon has failed me. yes... Yes... It was all them. Not I... not I....

I must not forget this. It is something I hold onto. The only ones that did not fail were those that were my enemies. They succeeded. Sanctus.... They will help me succeed. They will show me my path to redemption... they will help me with my revenge upon those that had caused me to fail.

They are so similar to me, this is why. They are like me. We both follow the virtues.

Honesty... I speak the truth always. I never speak lies. I never deceived anyone. If they were deceived it was because of there own doing, not I.

Honor... I am bound by my word and will uphold it always. Always...

Humility... Have I not stepped down from being a lord and know my rightful place of being what I once was before I cursed myself? I am but a warrior, nothing more.

Justice... I have always provided justice to any slight or wrong that was against me or against my subjects. If a crime was done, did I not exact punishment?

Valor... Need I even bother with this? I have countless times over the years proven this with every fiber of my being.

Spirituality... I have always been concerned with my inner being. Especially before becoming one with the demon. When I constantly fought myself within to control. And do so now to be as I once was?...

Sacrifice... I have always sacrificed myself to ensure prosperity for all beneath me, to ensure that the kingdom flourished. That people could live in peace from murderers, thieves and other sorts of criminals. Had I not protected people from the wraiths?

and lastly...

Compassion... I had let live a good number of women and children, sick and old even though known family members were rebels and criminals against me. Even now I let live some of those that had failed me. Are not my past troops, child and wife still alive?

I follow the virtues. Why can't many see that?

Why? What must I do? What do they wish for me to do to prove myself that I do?

Have I not at least redeemed myself by making peace with many that I would have wished to kill... slowly and with much pain?

He sighed as he thought more.

More must be done. I know I know.

I will follow this through and see where it leads me. It is time for me to stop thinking and thinking, constantly thinking. *hits the top of his head with one of his hands* Stop it already, stop it. *hits his head again to stress the point* Even though he knew it would be of no use.

It is time for me to just allow my actions to run their course and see if what will happen will happen…

Maybe they will allow me to use it... maybe...
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Malic M'real
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PostPosted: Wed Mar 04, 2009 5:24 pm Post subject: Reply with quote

Malic stood on the Tower of Blackguard looking over the kingdom which he was responsible for, the one he was aging for. His graying hair blowing in the breeze, thoughts of Tarothin went through his mind. This evil who Malic had bled against so many times was now in Sanctus colors. This thought worried Malic greatly but also made him think of the potential. Although it was an abomination to see Tarothin in black and gold, to see Ditto walking the streets of Sanctus freely. If Tarothin can truly be controlled he may be a great asset to the kingdom. If the Lord Commander were to unleash the fury that is Tarothin against the enemies of Sanctus, the destruction would be unmatched. But what if that same fury turned on the Dragon's flag during battle........
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