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[Nadia Swiftar]

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After her visit with Arakad it was decided that she would accompany him on his quest to visit the shrines. She felt a great sorrow in what had become of her and this would give her the opportunity to search again inside and find the answers she sought. She only hoped her absence would be unnoticed by the Order… and maybe.. just maybe they would forget about the slave she was to them.. after all she was not important. It was a chance she must take.

Sighing heavily she knew she must send what was in her heart to Vaen since she would not see him again for sometime… even after she returned she could not seek him out..not until he could conquer the darkness on his own. And so she sat down with quill in hand and began to write.

My dearest love,

When I first met you I felt like I was coming home. You made me smile just by thinking of you. Your face would light up my world. I can not explain to you how you made me feel really, all I know is that I fell in love with you and I could not stop myself. To me we had a wonderful love story, but it seems now our story is coming to an end. Our broken home is too shattered to put back together again. I can not try for the both of us. You must want this for yourself and for no other reason.. I will not be any mans obligation. I was warned of your past and yet I shut out those warnings thinking that it was possible for a man to change… but I am wrong. If I have not been enough to keep you from straying then I am not the woman you need.

I feel that I struggle with battles that are not my own, to free you of things that only you can free yourself of. Though I love you… I can not fight these battles anymore.. I realize that if you wanted to break free you would.. it is you and only you that can fight these demons in your soul. They seem to have tortured you for many moons…I have tried to help you in many ways.. I have given you chances to prove you have changed.. each time a piece of my heart has broken because I have been proven wrong. I realize some of what has happened in your past is the demon inside controlling your actions.. but if you can not destroy that demon in your soul how am I supposed to be able to… I have given and given you my love hoping that would help.. hoping that the darkness would ebb in lieu of the love that we shared… but it seems even the emotion of love is but a mere nuisance to that which haunts you… I have not been able to stop it.. or to even hinder it in the least bit. I do not know what it seeks in you…but whatever it is you must not let it take you… you must find a way to free yourself of it…

I will always be here should you need me.. but I can no longer give my heart to you. It pains me greatly that it has come to this…You were the first man I truly loved, and you will always be there in my heart… you showed me what it was to love and I thank you for that. I can only hope that one day you feel what I felt for you… it will show you a world that is free of the torment you suffer.

You will not see me for a time… or hear from me. I must find a way to break free from the darkness myself. I have to at least make an attempt to break away from the Order and hope my absence will go unnoticed. Please try to find strength of your own to break free… it is only then that you will be able to truly love another and find peace for yourself

Perhaps there will be a day where we can sit and reminisce about the wonderful things we shared together…For now I must have faith that you will return as the man you once were.. the man I grew to love so much .

I will love you always
Bri

Allowing the tears to fall freely they stain the parchment as she rolls it and ties it with a red ribbon. Wiping the tears aside she tucks it into her pack as she heads out to Minoc. There she would find a messenger to send it along, and meet with Arakad to begin their journey.